A cloudburst doesn't last all day.

My grandpa came to visit for the holidays.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I love my grandpa.
BUT HE IS MY LAST LIVING GRANDPARENT
AND HE DOESN’T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT HIS HEALTH
He’s diabetic and he’s had a heart attack and his arteries are super clogged and he’s on a nebulizer because he can’t breathe well because he’s been smoking since forever ago.
SO what does he do?
Literally sits and watches TruTV for like 23 hours a day (when he’s not taking mini naps), eats pork rinds and M&M’s and drinks Pepsi all day EVEN THOUGH HE’S DIABETIC, then goes outside like twice an hour to smoke THEN COMES INSIDE AND HAS TO BE HOOKED UP TO A BREATHING MACHINE BECAUSE HE CAN’T BREATHE BECAUSE HE SMOKES.
It’s really frustrating. I mean, I’m not the healthiest person and I don’t work out as much as I should and I like junk food.
But I know my limitations!! AND I SORT OF WANT TO TRY AND LIVE FOR A WHILE!
He’s just killing himself slowly and it’s really hard for me to take. I’m just trying to stay in my room as much as possible because the cigarette smoke makes its way inside a bit and it’s killing my allergies. And my mom is so upset about it because she knows. UUUGGGGHHHHH.
And my mom just read this over my shoulder and now she’s pissed at me.

first breath after coma

I have such awesome friends, really. This is including but not limited to
  • Catie
  • Will
  • Johnny
  • Maddy
  • Drewsie
  • Michael
  • Denzsmell
  • Emma
  • Poois
  • Benn
Being around them just makes my day that much better.
Catie is just an angel, and Maddy is too.
Drewsie is always entertaining, and there when I need him.
Johnny understands me better than anyone I've ever known.
Denzsmell may be a pain in the ass a lot of the time, but I love him.
Michael is gonna be Ash and I'm gonna be Misty and we're gonna hang out on halloween. And he's just rad in general.
Benn is fucking awesome and I'm so glad we're friends because he's like one of the coolest people I've ever known.
Emma is an adorable little gal. Rachel too, for that matter.
And Louis/Poois is rad and always will be.
Just thought I would share.

Shiver me timbers, I`m a`sailing away

I`ve realized that life is truly about enjoying the little things. We all live for these big, epic events in our life and we let all the other, small things fall off of our priorities list. Like what I just did-I sat, drank the best cup of coffee I have ever made, ate a croissant, and listened to some Tom Waits. I took 7 minutes out of my day for some peace. And this isn`t one of those turn-off-your-phone-and-enjoy-the-silence moments, although mine was off. It`s just `me time` in it`s simplest form. But I do need to learn to enjoy the pleasure of my own company, and not always picture how much more fun it would be if I wasn`t alone. Especially if I`m gonna do that year in Europe when I graduate. But man, if I have some coffee and croissants and a cd player, I should be pretty good-to-go!

I don't care if monday's blue

Oh hai guise
I'm listening to The Cure (mostly cause it's friday and I don't think Rebecca Black quite qualifies as good friday music for me)
And I am having a pretty good week, even though school started on wednesday
But it's not even bugging me too much right now
I'm sure in like 2 months I'm gonna go into my
UGH SCHOOL SUCKS GAWD WHY DOESN'T IT EVER END
But right now it's good.
Fine Arts Center rocks too, which helps haha.
I'm working on my first case bound sketchbook and I have to find some wicked trippy pycadelic print fabric for it but when it's done it's gonna be amazing
I hope...
Making sketchbooks by hand is kinda fun actually
the thread keeps catching but overall it's pretty great
I should post pictures when I'm done!! I'll show you last years sketchbook
The french groove wasn't super strong and it cracked a bit but that was on the inside so you can't see it-the cracking you see is just from the paint on the outside
My other one should be done soon and I'll get pictures up ASAp for all you nefs!
:D
Alright, I want coffee.
-Bella
Ugh sometimes I just feel like an awkward mess.
But I'm happy
I'm just a crap-tastic texter.
Also sorry for the lack of posts, not that you read them.
Because you don't exist, nefs.
Even though a nef exists in its lack of existing.
Does that make sense??
Ugh.
I'm going to bed.
Goodnight world.
Hey doods wassup?
I am doing FABULOUSLY SWELL
I've got the weirdest mix of music on right now (John Lennon, Monkees, Dum Dum Girls covering The Smiths, The Smiths, Black Flag, Yiruma, and Blink-182) and I just got back from hanging out with Louis, Austin, Eric, and Austin's friend Sean who was very nice. We ate gay bacon strips and talked about Ali Koehler, which is always a good time.

And I went downtown with Jack and Freddie the other day-we walked and then sat and got cherry cokes and talked for like 3 or 4 hours-which was rawther lovely. Even though I lost my sunglasses BUT I GOT THEM BACK TODAY!! So I'm happy (tortoiseshell wayfarers, in case you're curious).

BUT my friend Johnny, who lives in Charleston-and who I said I would share my blog with sometime even though this isn't really my 'private blog' cause I don't talk about the things that really bother me-is coming here to Greenville this weekend!!! So I am looking forward to that because he is my new best friend because he's AWESOME.

Also I am really loving this song right now-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pt2874dcth8&feature=related
(Whoever She Is-The Maine)

So yeah, my week has been quite wonderful, and it seems it will continue to be.

Also I need to go see Midnight In Paris.

Random inspiration










2 Ashlee Simpson video stills,a cassette necklace, Princess Daria, The lovely Gwen Stefani wearing Bindis, Lizzie McGuire, 2 Noah and the Whale video stills, and a cute yellow dress.